Pre-Wedding Food Consumption

I was going to title this post "Pre-Wedding Diet" but I thought that didn't really sound right since I am not actually "dieting". People that know me and my eating habits know I couldn't possibly have the self-control to diet. Food is my weakness. My absolute favorite activity is to go out to eat... breakfast, lunch or dinner, I like them all! So, about a month ago I went and had my dress altered to fit a little snugger. This last Wednesday I got to go pick it up, after I tried it on, to make sure it fit correctly. I was so excited to get to take the dress home, I may have even had a little sparkle in my eye.....and then, my mother and the alterations gal spent 5 minutes trying to zip it up. Wow, not how I wanted this to go! As soon as it was zipped and hooked, I began gasping for air. I couldn't breathe. I was going to suffocate and die before I even got to get married. This was a nightmare. I tried to tell myself that it would be ok, I will just back off the heavy snacking for the next two months till the big day. After 30 more seconds I realized I would have to live like an ethiopian in order for this dress to fit! Luckily, I realized I was wearing a very thick undergarment so I could remove that and finally breathe again... barely. Now happy with the fit I left the bridal store reminding myself that I would still need to "watch" what I eat. For those of you that have seen the movie Bride Wars, "you don't alter a Vera Wang to fit you, you alter you for Vera". In my case I suppose it's "you don't alter a Davids Bridal gown, you alter you for your gown". It is now Sunday, it has been 4 days since I vowed to only munch on healthy food and snacks like veggies, fruit and maybe some candy.. just a little (hey I can't give up everything cold turkey). Thursday night I went to a sushi and chinese food all-you-can-eat buffet; but I had to it was their grand opening... Friday, I had a Carl's Jr. bacon cheeseburger and fries for lunch; once again I felt this was justified because if I didn't give in to my initial craving I would leave work and head straight for Carl's Jr. for maybe two double-bacon western cheeseburgers which would be quite worse. After work it was nachos and loaded potato skins from Fridays. Saturday I was good..until I had 4 large slices of Roundtable pepperoni pizza and a chocolate cupcake. Oops. Today is Sunday, I woke up planning on having nutritious meals and maybe hitting the gym. So far I have laid on the couch all day, alternating between HGTV, the Lifetime Network, and Desperate Housewives. Oh, and after eating scrambled eggs with sausage, I ate a bunch of candy, thick slice of banana bread and... 4 more pieces of pepperoni pizza. What is wrong with me? I had consumed all of that by 2pm today. I have a serious portion control problem. Immediately after I scarfed the pizza down, I confessed to Justin what I had just done and told him this is why I do not like having this kind of food in my home, I can't stop myself. It's almost as if I have to keep eating it in case I never get to experience its amazing delicious taste again though I will probably get the chance to eat pizza next week! My mind must not be working properly with my stomach, this can't be normal. Surely I will be able to maintain control for two more months... surely....